Secret Love - Kanda Yu Love Story - Chapter 29

Kanda's POV

Day's past and Akari was still not waking up, she was alive and breathing but not waking up. I sighed for who knows how many times as I tried to restrain myself from entering that room she was in, which was the medical ward. The head nurse told us that she would wake up on her own time but it was slowly getting to long.

I stood by the open door seeing the others sit around her beside talking or talking to her, I heard usagi and moyashi ask for her to wake up but got nothing, they seemed to understand that she wouldn't anytime soon so they just let it be. Clenching my fist until my knuckles turned white.

'Akari wake up! You damn chibi your making me worry!' I thought then walked away to my room.

When I went to my room I slammed the door and took my coat off throwing it somewhere around my room and placed mugen on my bed, at this point I was raging out about what's going on right about now.

Taking a glance at the lotus flower I felt a pain in my chest just thinking that if I lost her then what would there be for me out here? I knew I still needed to know who that person was that I saw at odd times but I would also have to get Akari to understand.

Sitting down I soon brought my thought's back to Akari and how she would be now cause of the death of Kotaro.

'She might become distant....no that's not a matter of might she will..but the hell should I do about that?' I thought as I moved to lay down on my bed.

When the sun went down I silently went to Akari's side like I would always do when she was injured or not, sometimes I would go to her room before she slept to at least spend some time with her.

Opening the door I silently walked inside and closed the door slowly to not make a sound to have someone see me come in, when it was all clear I walked up to her bed and sat in the chair, grabbing her hand in mine I sighed and just looked at her.

"You fool...why would you bet your life like that? Do you think I would be the same if you died? Hell I would take down anything in my path if I ever lost you....Akari..please wake up..." I whispered to her forcing these feelings out that I had held back.

Cupping her cheek that wasn't injured I stroked the skin on her face with my thumb, my eyes softened a little as I kept looking at her. Leaning down I pressed my lips to her forehead then pulled away.

"I'll visit again tomorrow..." I whispered then just stood up and headed out.

** The Next Morning **

Cheers were heard down the halls when I woke up and got all ready then had walked in the halls, raising an eyebrow at all this I walked down and realized that it was in the medical ward.

'Could it be...?' I thought walking quicker.

Indeed it was true Akari was awake and sitting up, but what I noticed was that her eyes were blank and so empty. I knew it...I knew she was regretting all this and blaming herself.

"Yu-chan look! Akari is awake!" Lavi smiled.
"Che! Don't call me that." I growled then walked inside but didn't keep my eyes off of Akari's expression.
"Akari-chan! How are you doing?" Allen asked smiling, he was so not seeing her expression at this point

And to make it known we were met with silence, the other's looked at one another worriedly then looked back at Akari, when she lifted her head it was then that they notice.

"Akari...." Lenalee started off cupping her hands over her mouth looking at her sadly.
"Um...we should give her time alone..." Allen said slowly then pulled Lenalee and Lavi out, I just stood there and once the door closed behind me I walked up to her and put my hand on her shoulder.
"Akari...." I spoke.  

But like the others got I was silence, other then that I got her to glance at me but her eyes didn't change.

"Look...it's okay to be sad and all...but don't shut us out, you can come to us when your ready or to me.." I told her then brought her to my chest, frowning at how she just let me and sat there I knew this would be one hard thing to get her to grow out of...and also with missions I was afraid that she would do something stupid so I would need to talk to Komui about it all...even if it would expose our relationship to him.

Sighing I kissed her forehead again then just rubbed her arm, I was trying my best to keep in my annoyance that she wouldn't response to anything but also knew it wouldn't be good to even react to..or she would ignore me even more.

But just knowing she is allowing me to hold her like this it seems I was some what of a step closer to being able to comfort her.

Though I knew this was just the begining of trying to break her free of this pain...it was just day one of everything and one thing that I knew..my Akari wouldn't be the same for a while.

'It will hurt to see her like this but...if over time she goes back to herself then it needs to be worth it...' I thought